Saturday, November 21, 2009
Been busy but I'm getting stronger!
Friday, November 6, 2009
Thoughts before I crash into bed
- Love Eureka. The people are refreshingly honest, imperfect, and unpretentious. And they are the most loving ppl I've met. The diversity in Eureka satisfies my heart that loves such variety because it represents the multi-faceted world of humans made in God's image!
- I am not a Calvinist, nor would I call myself Reformed. However, that does not stop me from being friends and co-labourers with those call themselves Calvinist or Reformed. I notice that they are usually really intelligent ppl. They are usually guys. They also really need to build up their relational skills. :P
- I am most grateful to Rachelle for continually giving me opportunities to prophesy and to encourage me to bless others with the giftings God has given me. Rachelle! You are so pastoral, yet you are prophetic in the way you release ppl in their destinies! 100 hugs to Rachelle.
- I think Nat is the intense prophetic-intercessory type. That's why she looks scary but is actually not HAHAHA. She's actually very funny. 100 hugs to Nat.
- I think Phil is so great in the way he believes in people. He trully brings out the potential in ppl by genuinely treating them according to their potential. He calls me 'superstar' enough, and serves the vision so whole-heartedly that I think I'm starting to believe it can happen. He calls Peggy an 'expert' in image and 'feel'. She doesn't really believe it yet, but I think if she lets herself, she will be one. I really get inspired because I want to see ppl with such eyes too!
- Loooong day tomorrow. But thank God for 2 K's, Karen and Kuan who are being very kind to a muso who has no transport.xoxo
- WHY? the car has issues...boohoo...second hand cars are really problematic....:( No wonder Alvin used to have issues with his 5k car all the time. But....it's been a very great blessing to me already so I won't complain. Thanks Ming.And I will try to be good to the car.
- I also want to thank Johnnie Ongstar. He's been so patient with all the work I'm piling on him and also giving me really good ideas. Maybe one hug to John. He doesn't like hugs.
- I believe in a God who is sovereign, yet in his sovereignty he has allowed humans to choose and to have a will of their own. Because He, being love, wants to be loved in returned. If you 'program' people to love you, it will not be love anymore. He values love so much that he will risk the chance of ppl hating, or not loving him, so that there will be the genuine opportunity for ppl to love Him. Although He is God and all-powerful and He is awe-inspiring, and all would fall flat on their faces if He showed up in His glory, YET, He wants to be loved as who He is. He wants to get married to a GLORIOUS bride. He is SO smart and powerful that He will still accomplish his purpose while He allows humans to choose, incorporating sin and destruction in His plans by redeeming the wreckage. I believe that He does not want anyone to perish. He is patient for EVERYONE to come to repentance. That's why He is still waiting for us to fulfill his commission.
- Charis is tired. Good night. God is good.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
I will not stay in my comfort zone
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Temperaments
The Choleric / Sanguine
The choleric-sanguine is a blending of the two extroverted temperaments and will be somewhat less extraverted than the sanguine-choleric, because the choleric’s extraversion often takes a back-seat to his goal-oriented behavior. Nonetheless, this temperament combination is second only to the sanguine-choleric in terms of being outgoing and people-oriented. This temperament mix tends to give rise to an enthusiastic, motivational, and highly driven leader (choleric) whose social skills and interest in other people (sanguine nature) make him less dictatorial and capable of some flexibility. He will value relationships more than a pure choleric, and will show greater compassion in dealing with people, will be less controlling than the pure choleric, and will be more willing to take time out to relax and enjoy himself.
If you are a choleric-sanguine, you will find that you have a great amount of energy and inspiration for initiating projects and can be highly focused on task completion as well. Although you tend to be very objective, pragmatic, and logical -- and may sometimes find yourself stepping on toes in the process of accomplishing the task at hand -- you will also have the interpersonal skills needed to resolve conflict and to help people work together and get along with one another. The creativity and sensitivity of your sanguine nature will enable you to be flexible when the situation calls for it, and less demanding and harsh than a pure choleric would tend to be. You are likely an energetic leader or manager, with superb debating skills: firmly convinced that you are right, you also have the “people-skills” necessary to convince others as well!
Without strong formation and a deep spiritual life, however, your temperament’s weaknesses will be intensified. Without attention to self-formation you may find yourself quickly aroused to anger, yet also unforgiving. You can be impatient with others and overly opinionated. You may speak frankly or impulsively without regard for others’ feelings. You should take care that you become neither a workaholic nor driven by your passions. You may insist on having your own way, and become angered, blame others, or make excuses when corrected. But, once you become aware of the weaknesses of your nature, and make a commitment to self-improvement, you will be able to be equally determined in pursuing self-formation.
If your temperament is choleric-sanguine, for a better understanding of your temperament it is recommended that you read the full descriptions of the choleric and sanguine.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
7 reasons why Jesus could not have been a pastor in a modern church
One more for Jesus and other dreams!
- Charis has been really thinking about lots of things
- Charis really wants to win a Grammy in her life-time for Song of the Year
- Charis wants to sell albums past the one million mark
- It's a step of faith to say that out loud...or write it out loud.
- Charis is really excited about the coming Eureka camp and the prophetic presbytery for church! BreakThrough!!
- Charis thinks Bill Johnson's sermon 'Burn the Towel' was totally enriching and faith fuelling and REAL!
- Charis also likes Kris Vallaton's old sermon: 'God, the ultimate Body Snatcher'. SO many great great points.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
From the depths....
Hope to see him and Wee Liem when I go abck to M'sia for a holiday.
Hope to see Miranda too. It's been ages. Miss her!
Miss my house and household. Dorcas would be heaps tall now.
Miss the food...been dreaming about belacan fried chicken, kangkong stir-fried with chilli, sizzling plate tofu, and ha-ko [little lobsters] fried with egg yolk. ARGHHHHHHHHHH...can't wait to eat all of these things!
But..today...this struck me. Jason blogged about dreams.
This is a partial post of his, that was actually referenced from ANOTHER friend's blog:
As taking reference from a good friend, only our dreams reveal the deepest secrets of our hearts that remain hidden even to ourselves sometimes.
Lately, I can recall most of my dreams when I wake up. And these dreams showed me what my heart desire, minus all my intellectual thinking...these dreams really showed me how I felt at that moment when it happen. Some sad,that I cried. Some happy dreams, only to wake up knowing it is just a dream.
But I know I am losing what I cant keep in the 1st place.
I will cling on to the only hope I have in You, knowing that You have the best plans for me in life. Just help me to believe despite the circumstances.
http://tzeseong.blogspot.com/
those dreams, the gnashing of teeth, the sorrow, so bitter and deep...how does it feel to be abandoned?
how does it feel eh? Somehow, no matter how I try, I can't seem to shake of that uncanny feeling of being treated 2nd class for so many years.
Nevertheless, now i stand by my own.
I chart my own journey now.
The weight of adulthood rest like an enormous burden upon this shoulders, heavier than the PRS i so often sling.
And I loathe and revile the feeling of abandonment and rejection. Of misunderstanding. Of betrayal. It is probably the very thing that gives me the drive to keep steady, to keep cool, guarded, and never too emotional in public. WORK, even though your heart is breaking. SERVE, even though your life is falling apart. Life GOES ON. And no one will really bother about another nut-case who is in unexplainable pain.
Taking my mom's advice for once. I'm not going to wear my heart on my sleeve. Seems like I've succeeded. A few comments have drifted back to me, people think I'm poker-faced, reserved and self-protective. Aged, not care-free.
Yet it breaks out in the sub-conscious. All these feelings, desires, thoughts...
And Adulthood does weigh heavy. Feel like it's sapping the fun and the vitality out of me, because I'm struggling to survive all the time, and it ages me. I don't want to grow old before my time. I don't want to grow sour just because I'm growing up. I want life, ABUNDANT LIFE.
God is still good. I am actually valuing this time of getting to know Him. And if He is sifting all these things up from the depths of my heart, I need His grace to face them courageously though it crushes to my ego.