Charismatic

What would it be like to be able to sing this truthfully?  I'm in love with you, there is no cost I'm in love with you, there is no loss Scary words. To be in a place where you don't feel the weight of sacrifice because you're so in love with the Lord, that's just interesting to meditate on. I'll leave my father's house and I'll leave my mother I'll leave all I have known and I'll have no other or I will waste my life I'll be tested and tried With no regrets inside of me to find I'm at Your feet Strong strong strong words. I'm not there yet.

Mentoring is a calling and sometimes an unavoidable responsibility. When one has been blessed to be stuffed with teaching and life examples all your life, you've got to pass it on to people who obviously need it. Today, the youngest gal in life-group was telling us about her current BGR situation. Without going into details, it was plain from her stories that she had never been taught about godly relationships, covenantal love and promises, godly values for marriage and a life-partner, the purpose of dating etc. I was slightly troubled by her description of her current situation and was wondering if saying anything was appropriate because she was quite clueless, and I was not terribly close to her. However, as I pondered, the prompting to teach some basic truths, and share my experiences with her became stronger. I live pretty close to her, so as we were riding on the MRT I briefly gave her a short spiel on how to solve her dilemma following godly principles. She was interested, t...

我十七歲就“離家出走“ 了～自己在外面跑也有8年多了。有時候，一個人的感覺還蛮可怕的。 那種無依無靠的感覺~ 那種只能信任自己，不能完全信任別人的感覺~ 那種“我要自己解決一切的問題”的感覺～ 時常感到很恐惶~ 如果不是因為主的帶領，我會很刻意避開這樣的生活。 雖然是一個人，可是身邊還有主～還有國度里的大家庭。人不可能100％可靠，可是在基督里的家人總是會比一般人樂意幫忙。 I'm already very blessed.

今晚是復活節的聚會～～ 今晚也是我第一次在台北帶領人信主！超開心的！ 可以為主這樣服事總是我的榮幸！感謝主！ May there be many, many, many more to come! 可是，現在好累喔！ I'm going to bed~~

人總是要面對現實～唉～ 我覺得自己已經“享受”夠久了，一到台灣就有機會住在有好山好水內的湖區，而且住的地方還是別宿呢！除此之外，我的房東向來又隨和又慷慨。我看上帝也很照顧我 － 他知道我到了一个完全生疏的地方不能一次承受那麼大的打擊，所以漸漸地給我不同的挑戰面對。 現在搬家咯！我和一位好姊妹一起租了整層公寓，租金還蛮合理的。自己租房子是個新的挑戰～很好笑的是：我倆以前都沒有在台灣丟過垃圾（都是大樓的管理員或房東處理的事情）。今天我們就踏出這一步，處理自己的垃圾！ 台灣人處理垃圾的方式不像馬來西亞和澳洲那麼簡單。 馬來西亞：垃圾車幾乎每天都會經過，垃圾桶方外面的話就會有員工幫你倒垃圾。 澳洲：垃圾車固定會每一個禮拜經過一次。回收車每兩個禮拜來一次。每一間房子都會有政府所提供的垃圾桶。我們只需要推到家門口就好了。 台灣：垃圾車不一定每天經過～回收的方式也挺復雑！每一個區域都不一樣～～剛發現我們住的地方禮拜二和四收瓶瓶罐罐；禮拜一和五收塑膠和紙張；禮拜三和禮拜天垃圾車不會到。Compost有分殘羹剩飯類，和植物類～最慘的就是垃圾袋也要賣政府的！超貴的！政府應該是靠賣垃圾袋賺翻了！ 呵呵～Anyway, 學新的東西是好事～～今天，我和室友買了一大堆日常用品，這幾天就要準備開始下廚了。我在台灣沒有真正煮過一頓飯～有點期待。 好了！打中文有點累～先到這裡！

I'm really close to being 26. Scares me a little. I'm in my mid-twenties heading towards the "late-twenties" period. And what have I done with my life? Moved house and really wish my things could pop into their places with a snap just like Mary Poppins. Lord I just pray that you'll keep me in the centre of your will, always.

I mentioned in the previous post that I sang at an open mic last week. It was casual event called Pearl Cafe, held by Victor and Theo's church (called The Pearl). I sang 2 songs at event, followed by a Katy Perry cover in response to an enthusiastic 'encore' shout-out from the audience.  Flying kites with boys was a song I wrote for a play of the same title by Tendayi Nyeke, my Zimbabwean friend who is currently based in South Africa. It was one of those songs that I didn't need to 'think' through very hard. It just flowed out. At that time, Tendayi herself was going through a lot of rough patches, and I had enough history in my life to relate with her pain. The mutual angst made producing this song very easy. At that time, I also called upon muso-friend, Sulyn to arrange some backing strings for it. She did a beautiful job, though I will have to let everyone listen to that track another day. Lyrics are available in the video description. Enjoy. And free to...

 哥林多前書 9：24－27   24  豈 不 知 在 場 上 賽 跑 的 都 跑 ， 但 得 獎 賞 的 只 有 一 人 ？  你 們 也 當 這 樣 跑 ， 好 叫 你 們 得 著 獎 賞 。   25  凡 較 力 爭 勝 的 ， 諸 事 都 有 節 制 ， 他 們 不 過 是 要 得 能 壞 的 冠 冕 ；  我 們 卻 是 要 得 不 能 壞 的 冠 冕 。   26  所 以 ， 我 奔 跑 不 像 無 定 向 的 ； 我 鬥 拳 不 像 打 空 氣 的 。   27  我 是 攻 克 己 身 ， 叫 身 服 我 ， 恐 怕 我 傳 福 音 給 別 人 ， 自 己 反 被 棄 絕 了  暫時找不到毅力～還蛮辛苦的。真的 覺得自己太容易動搖或猶豫不決。 要在哪裡找到 可以讓自己走下去的 力量而且又不讓自己妥協原來的異像？

I'm kinda sick. Probably because of the hectic, sleepless weekend. But it was a lot of fun~~ Dr. Theo 'doctored' my new Elise guitar (yes, I recently purchased a little one) Sandpapered the bridge, re-strung it etc~ Ah, D.I.Y people are so handy to have around~~ We jammed and tracked a demo right after Of course, after all that work we needed to have a hearty tonkatsu meal The boyz And a newer addition to the boyz, the bassist Dawson Life-group had a meal outing the next day. Gorgeous burgers at 1885 store Will post about it in my food blog Life group pals Jenny and I met up then too!  Doesn't she look lovely? Oh, and I look made up because... ....of this gig after the meal and church service.  Open mic at Pearl Cafe The boyz joined me and I think we rocked :) I rarely think that my performances ever rock, so this was actually a good gig Cindy, Will, Vanessa. New friends.  Will is also a keyboard player.  After that, the boyz (and Will) and ...

Sometimes, I just want simplicity. I want the highway. The direct way. Just write, sing, play and be content. Instead I'm told to aim higher. To aim to change the world. To shape culture. Me? Sigh.

Sometimes I dread coming home late at night...usually late because all my musical/church activities end pretty late. And it's usually a long way home. An hour or so of travel.  I dread unwinding and going to bed because I have to face tomorrow and tomorrow often scares me to death. I don't have it all together even though so many people think I always look so focused. They ask me what is the secret of being so tenacious and focused? I'm speechless because I feel like I'm so scared half of the time. I feel like giving up every 3rd day.  But I thank God for all the little blessings. I was in need of people to do stuff with, and God has provided some buddies to play music and hang out with for a few weeks. Things like that don't last forever, but for whatever time that I've had, I've had heaps of fun and I thank God for that. Some interesting doors have opened up. If you read this, please keep me in prayer and all the people involved in these new doors. Trul...

Emma's one of my favourite Brisbane singer-songwriters. She is like Megan Washington, absolutely mesmerizing live. In this song, she articulates a lot of what's in my heart at the moment. Currently Stuck - in - the - mud and wishing for some progress, for some wisdom, for anything really.... Sometimes I look at you and think that you’re beautiful  Stylishly so, in an ‘I-don’t-care’ way  And I stare at you from behind painted glass windows  The colour depending on what kind of day And my hands press up against the glass - I can’t reach you  So surely I will not be able to teach you your worth...  But I’ll pray for you every night And as I melt away, I forget that once I would dance all day to the dream  I’ve yet to touch  But how dreams fade when they get stuck in the mud Sometimes I look at you and wonder  If I am what’s bringing you down to the ground, and I ponder: Maybe I should work with flowers or go back and study Significant thing...

An Eggs Benedict brekkie at New York Bagel 东东／Ivvee is a REALLY cute person She seriously sounds like she is 5 most of the time But really sweet and intelligent It's Friday, Friday, we so excited, we so excited....HAHAHA  (Ref: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CD2LRROpph0) [PS: My facial bones are protruding...look haggard and even thin....weird] My recent jamming mates, Theo and Aeon. Theo and Aeon are ABC's.  Chinese: Theo can speak and read/write, Aeon can speak and barely read/write. They have been great company the past few weeks, since we've started jamming together regularly. Hanging with them makes me feel like I'm back in some version 2.0 of Australia.  They go for Subway and burgers, rattle off 'western' jokes, are generally chill and laid back. It's like uni 2.0? Haha.  We were called for last minute gig at GOOD TV.  So, backstage picture! They are pale as!  Well, to be fair, I'm kinda pale too Cheers!  We were itching for lik...

Ridiculously fond of the new font. I've always been a fan of non-formal font. Well, let's hope I don't tire of it too soon :P Neways, I should go blow dry my hair and sleep. Sleeping late has been wreaking havoc on my skin and eyes. :(