Charismatic

Just a short short post before I scoot off to GoodTV for some projects.... I was Youtube-ing these 2 gals from High School Musical. They have some solo albums out. The music is horrendous I must say. Oh, very glossily produced. But as cliched and unoriginal as pop can get, and not even radio enjoyable! What ARE people thinking when they produce/write stuff like that? Sigh. Yuck yuck. Really. They are good singers and reasonable dancers, should be capable of so much more.

I have an idea of what kind of artist I want to be. I love a few types of music, and I would like to be able to write and release these few types in full-length albums.  Acoustic guitar music - Just a guitar, maybe a cello and light percussion and a back up vocalist. I would love to learn how to play decently on a few songs...on the others, want to work with a guitarist. Simple, sweet stuff, or witty jazzy little romps.  Soul/Motown/Funk - Full band. Drums, Funky Bass, Piano and Rhodes/Nord keys, wahwah guitars, the works. And maybe a few horns. Loveitloveitloveit. And of course, gospel back up vocalists who sing better than me for those lush harmonies. :P Piano and Strings - A Steinway Grand. And a string quartet. And a double bass. Emo kind of dramatics music. Just the piano and I sometimes. Latin music - salsa, bolero, merengue....singing and performing in this style is FUN FUN FUN. Add in dancing and heels and bright colours. Whoohoo. If I ever get to release decent al...

你收了行李下个星期要去英国  遥远的故事记得带回来给我  我知道我想要 却又不敢对你说  因为我已改变太多 你改了一个名字也准备换工作  你开始了新的恋情有一些困惑  我知道你想要 却又不敢对我说  因为你已改变太多 你写了好几首属於你的歌 这样的歌隐藏了太多苦涩  我知道你想要 却又不敢对我说 因为我曾是你 我曾是你  无话不说的朋友 因为 我们改变太多  A basic summary: You've packed your bags and you're going to England next week Please tell me the tales from afar I know I want to talk to you but I don't dare to Because I've changed too much You've changed your name and you're going to get a new job You've started a new relationship and it's a bit rough I know you want to tell me, but you don't dare to Because you've changed too much You've written a few songs of your own Bitterness is hidden in them I know you want to tell me, but you don't dare to Because I was once your friend There was nothing under the sun that we didn't talk about Because we've changed too much

The question was raised As my conscience fell A silly little lie It didn’t mean much But it lingers still In the corners of my mind Still you call me to walk On the edge of this world To spread my dreams and fly But the futures so far My heart is so frail I think I’d rather stay inside But You love me anyway It’s like nothing in life That I’ve ever known You love me anyway Oh Lord, how you love How you love me It took all of my strength To simply be still To seek but never find The reasons we change The reasons I doubt Why do loved ones have to die? But You love me anyway It’s like nothing in life That I’ve ever known You love me anyway Oh Lord, how you love How you love me I am the thorn in Your crown But You love me anyway I am the sweat from Your brow But You love me anyway I am the nail in Your wrist But You love me anyway And I am Judas’ kiss But You love me anyway I am the man who yelled out from the crowd For Your blood to be sp...

From this site Why Do CDs Cost So Much? According the RIAA, there are many factors that go into the overall cost of a CD, and the plastic it's pressed on is among the least significant. But while  CD manufacturing  costs may be low, it takes more money than ever before to put out a new recording. Here are just some of the costs that go into the production of an album: Artist royalties Songwriter royalties Costs of recording the album - Recording studio fees, studio musicians, sound engineers, producers, etc. Marketing and promotion costs - Video clips, public relations, tour support, marketing campaigns, promotion to get the songs played on the radio, etc. Design costs - CD insert, promotional materials (posters, store displays, music videos) Concert tours

I want to praise God while this is still fresh. Today was a good day. May there be more of these days. These past few months or rather, these 1.5 years have been full of turmoil mentally for me. Emotionally and spiritually, I'm quite at peace that I'm walking in God's will. But there has been so much to absorb and new things to learn that I've been quite mentally stressed. I often struggle from sleepless nights, because I'm too excited or agitated mentally.  Firstly, there's the alien-ness of the Chinese language. I absorb Chinese so much more slowly compared to English. :(. I have been trying REALLY hard to read Chinese books and articles. I finished a few books these holidays. For those who know me, it is an achievement...I've never really finished more than 1-2 Chinese books in my life. And I get really confused by people in Taiwan. Some readily tell me my accent needs lots of refining and I need lessons. Others tell me I'm fine, that my accent is ...

Check out the world's best selling albums ever here . Guess how many female artists listed. 3. That's right....Whitney Houston, Alanis Morissette, and Shania Twain.  I've been thinking about this for a while. Are men more talented at 'doing' stuff compared to females? Why are there so many male multi-instrumentalists? Male chefs? Male Fashion designers? I mean..cookery and fashion are female 'worlds'. But they have males on the top rung of the ladder of success. Somewhere somehow I read about men and their hobbies. They take their hobbies so seriously because they need to be in control of something somehow, and achieve something. That's why they can't just 'cook', they need to be a chef! They won't sew or draw generally, but if they do it's about being the renowned designer.  I think, in general, men have this extreme drive about hobbies, things or abilities they love that I don't see so much in women. Not that it doesn't ...

I went to an old friend's wedding today. It was simple. But they were making an irrevocable commitment to belong to each other. To burn as one candle and not as two separate ones.  It's weird. For someone so keen on love and marriage as I was these past few years, I find myself detached and a little frustrated. A few things I've been realising about myself. I'm restless and easily bored. I didn't know how easily bored I was until recently. I can't stand sameness and routine for too long. Makes me uneasy and frustrated. Makes me afraid of marrying someone that I might get tired of in a few years, because I am need that much diversity. I feel uneasy if I see only one race of people milling around. I get uneasy if I do the same thing every week/day. I feel like something is wrong. I don't feel like I can stay in one place for the rest of my days That I need to go somewhere different, meet someone different, eat something different, even experience God differen...

My mom found a little notebook of mine dating way back to the first few years of secondary school. I found this little poem?/emo scrawl of mine. It was sooo emo that I laughed and I decided to put it up on my blog. How it reeked of teenage angst! Sick I'm sick of the loneliness that always haunts I'm sick of anxiously, fearfully watching those around me Do they really love me? Does anyone really love you for who you are? Sick of feeling uncertain Changes I hate to see myself change Inevitable, cruel sometimes Though you may be beside me now Will you ever slip away from my grasp? The next page was a little song...prob just a chorus: How should I use this for your glory? How should I use this in your name? How should I show the world that you came and you gave your life? Through this gift that you gave me The most interesting thing is, not A LOT has changed.  It's been 10 years or more. I don't voice things out in such a raw, emo way anymore. I talk about butterflies...

I need to stop thinking about the past...it annoys my left-brain. Been stuck in a pool of memories. Malaysia is where I put all my pack-rat old things...perhaps it's time to get rid of most of them. They are harmless. Mostly letters from old friends in school, photos, little trinkets. But should I keep reminiscing? Is it beneficial? Sometimes, I wish I can be press reset. Restart. Then one can look forward more easily. And the future awaits.

The real performance will come later...