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聖地亞哥的哀歌

莫名其妙飛到聖地亞哥(飛到這兒才知道San Diego 中文叫聖地亞哥) 莫名其妙感覺好難過 難道我有的還不夠嗎? 愛情,金錢,機會不缺 為何心中還是有莫名其妙的哀傷?為什麼還是會與別人比較?為什麼那麼容易陷入絕望? (還好這種哀傷也是寫歌的衝動~一口氣就寫了一首芭樂歌....) 主啊,我難過。可是難過得廷開心的。聽起來矛盾嗎?這就是我。情緒矛盾? 為什麼難過?你最知道。你最懂我。 (诗篇 42:5 ) 我的心啊!你为何沮丧?为何烦躁?要仰望上帝,因为我还要赞美祂——我的救主,我的上帝。

Lovingly Fearlessly & Decisively

2015. Will I be able to live it out lovingly, fearlessly and decisively? I have opted to blog less and less the last 2 years because my brain has been exhausted with trying to process my thoughts and feelings. Every time I write something, I immediately feel like deleting it because other thoughts already clamour for attention in my mind, making everything on the screen irrelevant. But for once, I want to just have a random spiel. Hopefully, I won't delete this. I'm listening to Tendayi's old tune, 'Quiet'. 'If I were to become a failure in my own eyes, still You'd want me' Meditating on it but for once, it does not cut me to the heart and that is a GOOD thing. Why? Well, I think 2014 has taken some of the fear of failure out of my life. Just not pursuing too many musical goals in 2014 has allowed me to be in an emotional state that is relatively stable. However, I think God's gentle voice is judging me towards picking everything up again in 2...