Charismatic

The enemy likes to attack us where we are weak. And sometimes, they know us better than ourselves. I think depression and a sense of failure or never being good enough has been haunting me on and off for many years. These few days, I was struggling with invisible forces that kept shouting thoughts like "how pathetic that effort is" and "no matter how hard you try you're going to fall short". Others "God's promises give you great expectations that are never met" and "just gear yourself up for the real world, where bad things always happen". I know there are others who struggle like me. Struggle to discern whether the voices are your own or from the enemy. Struggle to renew and rebuke when you're tired and dissapointed. Struggle to thank God when trouble or dissapointment chokes your heart. God was saying yesterday, 'Charis where do you stand? Standing in Me , nothing is impossible. You will always have what u need' Where is ...

I've just had a most thought-provoking chat with my mom. I don't know why, but the latter half of 2007 has brought much difficult information for me to digest. Issues that are international, spiritual and political. I believe this season that the Lord has appointed for me is one of patience, honing character and of learning discernment. I've never been particularly strong in discernment. Spiritual or otherwise. however, things have changed. God is pushing me forward.I've always thirsted for wisdom and knowledge. I prayed everyday for it for 2 years, and also for the spiritual gifts related to it. This is wisdom and knowledge in a higher level. Seeing things through God's eyes, I believe, is true discernment. Just before my exams, I was busily looking up information about famous ministers and ministries around the world. I was curious to see what the public thought of them, how they used their money, and if I personally felt their doctrine or fruits were sound and go...

Hmm....6 weird things. And tagging another 6 weird people to write 6 weird thing about themselves? Mei....Didn't quite expect that from you... haha. Ok, perhaps I'm young too.:P. 1. My stomach is elastic. it EXPANDS for sushi and steak. And expensive steamed fish and tofu. For other generic things....shrink shrink. 2. When I'm ridiculously happy and excited OR tired, I become very very babyish and irritatingly high pitched [even to myself]. I even produce baby sounds. Yes. Nonsense baiscally. So, if anyone has seen me in those moods...err....They don't occur that often...hopefully. 3.My sister, Liz and I have a tradition of watching old videos of ourselves [kids praise and worship] when i'm back home for Christmas. We definitely sing along with 'Donut Man' Integrity Music stuff like "His banner over me is Love" and "Joy is the flag flown high". We combine all of this loud singing with weird scarf flourishes and jumping around the living r...