2015. Will I be able to live it out lovingly, fearlessly and decisively? I have opted to blog less and less the last 2 years because my brain has been exhausted with trying to process my thoughts and feelings. Every time I write something, I immediately feel like deleting it because other thoughts already clamour for attention in my mind, making everything on the screen irrelevant.
But for once, I want to just have a random spiel. Hopefully, I won't delete this.
I'm listening to Tendayi's old tune, 'Quiet'.
'If I were to become a failure in my own eyes, still You'd want me'
Meditating on it but for once, it does not cut me to the heart and that is a GOOD thing. Why? Well, I think 2014 has taken some of the fear of failure out of my life. Just not pursuing too many musical goals in 2014 has allowed me to be in an emotional state that is relatively stable. However, I think God's gentle voice is judging me towards picking everything up again in 2015. This time, without agonizing over every decision I make.
Making a decision in faith and trust versus making a decision in fear.
My heart is growing up. And it is ready to soar again.
But for once, I want to just have a random spiel. Hopefully, I won't delete this.
I'm listening to Tendayi's old tune, 'Quiet'.
'If I were to become a failure in my own eyes, still You'd want me'
Meditating on it but for once, it does not cut me to the heart and that is a GOOD thing. Why? Well, I think 2014 has taken some of the fear of failure out of my life. Just not pursuing too many musical goals in 2014 has allowed me to be in an emotional state that is relatively stable. However, I think God's gentle voice is judging me towards picking everything up again in 2015. This time, without agonizing over every decision I make.
Making a decision in faith and trust versus making a decision in fear.
My heart is growing up. And it is ready to soar again.
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Uncle Richard Rajoo once made a very enlightening statement. Basically it goes like this:
We are made to need other people. That's why God says it is not good for a man to be alone. So, although God can meet all our needs, it is still not wrong to say we need other people especially a partner in life, family, soul mates , good friends etc.