Charismatic

Been busy, yet feeling like I'm letting time slip through my fingers. You've been in my mind, so often. It's been a long time. Why can't I get rid of you, you phantom? You don't exist anymore.....You're not the person I used to know... Body is not taking it well. A million things to do and think about. If you're reading, please pray for me. I'm going to fly off for a short trip soon in Taiwan. On a brighter note, Thank you Phil and Kev for all the running around and all the work. Phil especially this week! I don't know how to pay you back, but when I can I will. And God certainly would too! And thank you my friends for the birthday dinner Thursday! You know who you are :)

Thoughts about a career in the arts: Perhaps I am too normal. One shouldn't be too normal if one is artistic and creative. One always sticks out, sometimes like a sore thumb. I think I blend in pretty well with everyone else. Been watching MMC videos of Christina, Britney etc.Wow...they were very well - trained when they were young. Christina especially was a heaps good singer! They are used to all the camera lights, the make up, the auditions etc. Ivan mentioned before that he thought I was really reserved for a person considering a career in entertainment. I wonder... Perhaps I should have gone corporate, gone into anything else that was more ... structured? Been really stressed. Sigh.

I took a new route home today. I'm still challenging myself bit by bit to not do the same old same old each day. It's hard. But I think I need to do this, so that I can go forth in faith and not fear with each step God wants to take me. I wish I offered to give a lift to my colleague. Hope I can gird up enough courage for that next time I was thinking, is it possible to grow a group with friends who have genuine, transparent relationships with you? Or does being 'strategic' always puts distance between friends after a while? Changes always happen, groups grow and multiply, people move on, so ... if one commits to growing groups, perhaps peer friendships are not always easily developed. I need to be practising and doing stuff, but I seem to be constantly tired this week. Hormones are wacked! Taiwan looms in a week. Whew. Tomorrow, birthday dinner from friend! Yay! Tomorrow, long day of work. Boohoo :( I should sleep.

I've often wondered how my brain works. Now I've found out. I am quite left-brained, therefore, not very creative. Haha. And, I'm also a holistic as opposed to a linear processor. I NEED to see the big picture and I'm not too fussed about details. This is exactly how God works with me. He has always given me the big picture first, and worked out the details as I went along. He doesn't work like that with everyone. He genuinely DOES care how we are wired. WOW! The only confusing thing is I am verbal and non verbal. Haha. Well, it just means I love using words AND illustrations to express myself. Not either/or. Some of these results also explain why I loved the concepts of science, but struggled badly with processing mathematical details! I'm also a more 'rules and regulations' person, as opposed to a 'think outside the box'. I love structure and I love 'to-do' lists. And I can memorize numbers, learn dance moves quickly due to sequential a...

We just came back from Byron Bay and the Spit. It was Peggy's b'day wish to watch the sunrise at Byron Bay. So we geared ourself for a very cold, sleepy morning. as it had been a VERY cold week. Waking up at 2.30am was hard! Alvin and Dan soon arrived and we set off in Alvin's car. By then, everyone was cheerful and awake. We only took 1 hour and 40 min to reach Byron, which was a pleasant surprise. I guess there was hardly any traffic during that hour. Personally, I've never been so nuts about scenery to wake up that early. So, I was looking forward to the sunrise. Most of the time, Alvin and Daniel played around with their super-ex photography gear while Peggy and I tried to make the best use out of our compact cameras! Well, I learned how to control shutter speeds, sit and crouch in odd positions for the right compositions, and managed to get a few decent shots even without a tripod. We took pics in the dark, we took pictures at twilight, we took pictures of the sunr...

I've been spending  a morning a week at Portside lately. It's because I purchased a really cheap voucher for 4 visits to Elle Bache. Note to whoever is interested, Elle Bache is good at skincare but really below average for massages. Go for the skin.They do it quite well. They diagnose skin conditions and get rid of black heads.  Don't go for any massage treatments.  For Massages, click here . Found the massage therapist Maureen to be very good. Feel like going back soon. But unfortunately, everything I've gone to is in the Nortside, because of work. Sigh. Can anyone reccomend decent massage therapists in the Sunnybank, Garden City, Eight mile plains area? Took Peggy out for breakfast for her birthday. Wish I could have done a bit more actually. Could have sent her to her interview earlier on. But I was super tired from work, cooking and recording all week-end.  I think I'm learning to trust God a bit more now. I've observed my own life and the timing of God in ...

I got this link (http://stevemurrell.typepad.com/my_weblog/2009/05/the-myth-of-the-gifted-child.html) off my friend and junior in high school. Many people have told me I'm gifted. Or they have commented that others are gifted. But honestly, do you know how much money my parents have spent on my so called 'gifts'? Do you know how many hours of practice and lessons I've had [still do]? Do you know the hours of thinking, planning, and sacrificing play-time, forgoing TV and leisure time developing talents has involved? Kudos to my parents for all they invested. Piano, Ballet, Violin. Yamaha piano lessons[yes I used to attend 2 piano lessons a week, one violin lesson, orchestra/ensemble practices, ballet twice a week, volleyball once or twice a week, church and youth group, and worship practices on Wednesdays. Throw in some tuition and the load of homework from a Chinese school education system. VOILA! The summary of most part of my life in Malaysia as a child and adolesc...