The appeal of reaching the lost has often grabbed tight at my soul and caused me to choke with tears over the past 5 years. I cannot forget the first time God spoke to me with such clarity. "EClub". "Join E-Club".
I obeyed and it has changed my life. It's not the club. It is finding out that God had deposited the gift and calling to evangelism into me when he formed me. It is the privilege of being used by God and partnering with God in his great quest for souls.
The wonder of it all. Because I am so unworthy. But it is a gift after all. I had no choice in it.I did not earn it. I just need to use it.
These last 2 months, 2 girls in life group accepted Christ at different times. Each time, the gift in me opened my eyes to them, made me leap at situation and seize the day to see someone make a decision of commitment to Christ. ..what an awesome privilege it is. Praise the Almighty God.
When I think of the journey of these past 5 years, and the 4 after God spoke to me, the many souls that have been won for Jesus, I can only say, God...let your will be done. My flesh SCREAMS all the time against the sacrifices, or the holy and narrow straight path, but Lord, don't listen to my flesh! Don't listen to my immature emotions and silly mentality sometimes! Listen to my spirit that is willing. My spirit will say, "O God, let your will be done that there will be always one more for Jesus. One more for the rest of my life...."
I cried when I first saw that clip of Rick Warren reminisicing about his dad saying "One more for Jesus" in his deathbed.
I cry in my soul still: Lord. Many a time I lack passion. I don't burn for the lost like you do. I don't pray enough. I am so weak. But God. Please, keep reminding me of what You put me on earth for--> To be your mouthpiece. To bring one more to Jesus.
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