The timing of God is perfect.
The way God perfects us is astounding. His ways are definitely different to ours. Sometimes, He moves faster than we think he would, and at others times he takes centuries.
In Jan 2008, I was seeking God about what to do after graduation. I felt pulled in all kinds of directions. There were people giving me words about going back home. There were words about other countries. And I felt lost.This word was the one that cut through, Ps Donald prophesied over me:
The Lord has prepared you well. Lots of preparation has gone in. You hear many voices. Many suggestions. Your heart’s cry is for God to speak clearly. What ppl group? What ministries? The Lord does not play games with you. Every incident is connected. Nothing has happened by chance. Nothing is isolated. By this year he will speak clearly. Like the blind man whom Jesus touched twice. Focus. God is bringing focus in your life. Focus can be frightening. Like the blind men who saw men as trees walking around first time. Jesus is going to touch you again. You will see clearly. There will be involvement in evangelism, missions and singing.
My fears were then put to rest.
Ps Lai Ling also said at the end of 2007,
I sense strongly, “Wait upon the Lord seek his face. For this is a season of waiting and knowing his father heart of love. He wants you to know his unconditional acceptance. There have been things in childhood and through your life that have caused you to feel rejected. Feel the need to perform to please, to be accepted. Words and actions that have crushed your heart. You feel as if you don’t follow God [to the tee], he will take your call away. But God is not like that. He loves you so deeply. You will not miss your call. It’s not the timing yet. God will renew the call once the set seasons are over. Wait on the Lord. Bask in his presence. For this is the season for you now. You will not miss on God’s calling.
I feel like saying,"Behold, it is time". I don't feel ready at all. But things are changing. The launch will happen soon.
2008 was the year of routine, strengthening, circumcision, repentance, forgiveness and uprooting. It was a tough, painful year. I questioned myself hundreds of times. I questioned God. I felt like a wanderer in the wilderness. I wanted to jump on to every ministry bandwagon to try to 'DO' something. I was advised not to. But to focus. But what was I to focus on? It took me a while to rediscover things.There were many good times and many God-moments. But it was tough.
Along the way, I started compiling all the words of promise spoken these 7 years. So many... I needed to hope in my God and his unfailing word.
Now, just like in 2002 and 2003, things are moving very fast. The winds of change are starting to blow. The words by the end of 2008 were more like, 'Don't miss the point. No more wandering" ; "It is time to cross the Jordan" "The time of fulfillment is near" "Set up sails".
I believe the Lord has touched my eyes again, just like it was prophesied a year ago. I am seeing the role I have to play in God's kingdom with fresh eyes. I am seeing so much that I am overwhelmed.
Now, will I be willing?
More to come later.
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