Throughout,God has always been so specific in asking about our desires. To the various blind men, he asked, "What do you want?" and He also said, "May it be done to you according your faith".
I feel like God has been really probing me about my desires. What are my true desires? Do I really want what I seem to want? Do I trully have a passionate desire for Him and for His plans? Do I have a desire for my so called dreams or are they just nice dreams?
Today, God spoke to me through Greg. Greg's special. He's been in our group for 1.5 years and he only accepted Christ not too long ago. He made the decision with full conviction that he wanted to worship this of his Saviour, Jesus Christ. I was so happy when he finally came out to alter call and knelt on his knees, ready to give his life to Christ.
Greg is intense. He has the most intense stare in the whole world. He's a quiet man of steel. He's a bit of a perfectionist and quite focused.Yet intensely humourous too.
We were at his farewell tonight, as God has opened a door for him to work in Melbourne. We chatted at dinner and he shared with me his dreams of changing the world through software and how he was praying for God to show him how God could use him through these aspirations. He said a few things that really cut through. I don't know why, but they hit my heart, especially coming from a relatively young though knowledgable believer.I shared with him a bit of my decision making processes about the calling of God on my life. He said,
" You shouldn't waste a single minute if you can help it on anything that has nothing to do with your dreams. Give 100% to what you really want your life to be"
In response to my comment being rather apprehensive about how things would work out, he told me "But this is where faith comes in, doesn't it?". OUCH.
When we talked about sacrifices for the calling, he said, "But actually, it really isn't about paying the price. It is about DO YOU REALLY ACTUALLY WANT THIS?"
Lastly, he said, "You'll be surprised how God can work things out even when you think that this desire and that desire does not fit together, if you pursue God's calling you can trust Him to work it out".
OUCH OUCH OUCH.
God, I ask you to help me embrace the plans you have for me. Help me be excited about them and give it my all. Because you deserve my all and my everything. Help me not be distracted by things not of you, good as they may be. Help me. Help us all.
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