Happiness. How does one define it?
I remember a few spots of happiness in my life. And it wasn't because there wasn't pain. In fact, when I'm in a happy phase, the pain I go through is intense too. The dealings of God are clearly defined and they are sometimes very difficult to handle. Emotions are purified. Sometimes the deep places are searched out and there is need for repentance or just replacing lies with truth.
But it's much better then numbness. It's better than feeling that life is normal and ok, but there is nothing much to look forward to. It's better than just drifting. It's better than feeling burdened by the day to day, no joy to carry you through.
I thrive on vision and adventure. Once I lose sight of the vision, it's hard to be happy. To feel alive.To be fully alive means to feel pain and joy in large amounts and to be able to trust God amongst it all.
I was sublimely happy in Adelaide, feeling like I was gobbling life up and savouring every spicy moment. Circumstances are very different now.
But I must say, I am quite happy.
There are a lot of challenges. There is a lot of pain. There is a lot joy. There are rich friendships. Most of all, I am savouring the plan of God. I'm living out the plan of God.
I remember a few spots of happiness in my life. And it wasn't because there wasn't pain. In fact, when I'm in a happy phase, the pain I go through is intense too. The dealings of God are clearly defined and they are sometimes very difficult to handle. Emotions are purified. Sometimes the deep places are searched out and there is need for repentance or just replacing lies with truth.
But it's much better then numbness. It's better than feeling that life is normal and ok, but there is nothing much to look forward to. It's better than just drifting. It's better than feeling burdened by the day to day, no joy to carry you through.
I thrive on vision and adventure. Once I lose sight of the vision, it's hard to be happy. To feel alive.To be fully alive means to feel pain and joy in large amounts and to be able to trust God amongst it all.
I was sublimely happy in Adelaide, feeling like I was gobbling life up and savouring every spicy moment. Circumstances are very different now.
But I must say, I am quite happy.
There are a lot of challenges. There is a lot of pain. There is a lot joy. There are rich friendships. Most of all, I am savouring the plan of God. I'm living out the plan of God.
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