I'm so glad it's Thursday night

I'm so glad it's Thursday night. Tomorrow, I can sleep in. Work is only half day. It's in Sunnybank. I don't have to drive 23 km to get to the studio, and 23 km back. But wow, I'm actually driving! I'm doing something that I've been rather hesitant and fearful of all the while when I was in Brisbane. Goodness knows why, when traffic in Malaysia is worse and I manage fine there. But, it's just a 'first time jitters' thing. Mom would testify that I just freak badly at anything new before I do it, and then plunge in so deep like it never bothered me at all [and have people wanting to wring my neck for all the fear-whinging done previously]....It was like that with playing piano for church for the first time, going away for camps, singing on stage, driving at home, evax, exams, first year uni, work...

I'm just here to reflect on the generosity of a brother that lent me his car this week and for as long as I need it these few weeks. This brother has been known to be really generous and servant hearted to everyone he meets. He helped out our household with our issues over the eyars, gave us a free desktop for the TV, lent me his laptop, drove to the airport to pick up stuff, helps people with punctured tyres, helps people move house. 

I'm really challenged when I see such open-handedness, because I know I'm way less open-handed. I'm much more protective of my stuff, my money etc. I'm much more aware of being 'fair' with people. I have a "I'll bless you, but please bless me back" mentality. 

I mean, there is a place to be wise, but ultimately, a servant-hearted, generous lifestyle is one that reflects Christ. Well....I must decrease then. I've beent trying very hard to share with housemates, with lifegroup people and to think of ways to bless others. Honestly, my mom can testify that it goes against my very grain. I've always lived as one who 'lives and let lives'. Leave me alone and I'll leave you alone. Be responsible for yourself and I'll be responsible for myself. I'll give you a present, but where's mine? Treat me right and I'll treat you right. Treat me wrong and I'll have anger and resentment starting to brew.

How does one love and serve with no strings attached, particularly to brothers and sisters around me?

God teach me....and I'm a slow learner, but please be patient with me.