Thank God for you people

I feel a little better. Having long walks, and a fun games night with a couple of Eurekans has helped.

Or perhaps I know that it is ok to experience highs and lows after doing so many new things.

Thank you Rach for the prayer and catch ups. Thank you Phil and Sharon for the dinner and the lifts and good will. Thank you Nat for the long chat and the dinner on Friday. She told me she really missed me while I was away. That she was glad I was back.

It was great to know some people missed me while I was away. It's great to know that I matter to someone. That my presence would make a difference in someone's life...especially in their day to day routine. It's easy for people to say you make a difference in their lives, but honestly, if I died today, most people's lives would go on like normal. They might have a jolt for a day or 2, but after that, the presence of Charis is not really indispensable or anything they can't do without. They won't really miss it, to be brutally honest. (Well, I think that only my parents would really care and think often about it. haha. They are my parents after all).

Well, there was one more person that made me feel very much welcome back. You know who you are. Thank you for remembering me during the conference and buying the mp3's for me to listen to. Thank you for fasting and praying for me during the trip. For calling. For messaging to show how glad you were I was back. Thanks. I am quite touched.

Perhaps it's just bittersweet. Because there are those whose call and messages I am waiting for. That will just make my day. But it's not going to happen. I have become....someone that is non-essential in their lives. It takes some getting used to. But not something I haven't faced before.

This too shall pass.

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