I've been thinking. One of the greatest breakthroughs I've had is developing the conviction that my success is what God thinks is success. And that is usually faith and obedience in whatever stage of life I am.
I am setting out to 'make it' in my musical career. To develop a songwriting/recording/performing career. To be able to travel and let lots of people hear my music and be moved/inspired by it. And make a living out of it. Currently I have no real job. I don't really have any guarantees of the future. I don't really have much money. I'm working with a small production company. Everyone is telling me the Taiwanese music market is terrible nowadays. Am I a success?
In the world's eyes I am nobody. Just another person. Another wannabe. A dreamer. A little foolish.Might amount to nothing....or worse....achieve mediocrity.
But in God's eyes, I am a success. Because I took a step forward. I am continually taking steps forward. I am not settling for less. I stepped into the unknown. I'm crossing the Jordan.
I was a success 2 years ago when I decided to prepare for this move. I was a success a year ago when I was struggling with these decisions and I moved forward in spite of paralyzing fear. In spite of agonizing pain at the prospect of losing the friends I treasured most. In spite of putting to death the hope of love and marriage for the mean time. In spite of letting go of financial security.
I am a success whether I sell 200 records or I sell millions. Whether everyone knows my name or nobody cares. As long as God is for it, my success is sealed if I obey.
I will probably have children [physical and spiritual] next time. I am glad to be able to face them and say I obeyed the call and never settled for less. "Even if 'mommy' never 'made it' in the conventional sense by then, God is smiling down on her. She broke through. Because what is our purpose in life except to love Him extravagantly and fulfill our destiny? It will be the legacy I leave for you and for anyone who hears the story. That it is possible to live for the eternal and the unseen rather than the present comforts and practicalities. It all depends on perspective.
So right now, in Taipei, I am declaring that my Father in heaven is pleased with me. And I am a success right at where I am. And it will be a spiritual legacy and inheritance for the generations to come.
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sometimes when i write melancholic stuff and then i read a declaration like that i think to myself...dang my emotional writing should be thrown away.
I don't know. my perspective on writing and communicating messages has just kinda changed a little bit.
yes..it is a faith post. But it is also...more of a reality post as well? I see it as my success is not a 'unseen' thing...it's a very tangible thing currently...in God's eyes. And God's perspective is the truest.
My songs hold all my melancholy already....:) no need to post more about it...it's immortalised in song...hahahaha
Emotional writing has its benefits...we just needs the balance of faith and honesty...not one without the other.