Words from God

Been pretty down lately. It happens when I don't feel productive and the goals are undefined or I feel stuck. 

A few words of encouragement came from friends. 

Rach prayed for me: Talked about God making a pipeline for me. About the pipeline being extended section by section, and I need to have the patience as God is forming the way I am to go for me. The pipeline is also for His living waters to go through and bless many. It's like a water pipe in the desert, like channeling water to Siberia or the Sahara. No one has gone that way before, and therefore, new pipelines need to be built. And that takes time. And God wants it also to be a road for others in the future. Others can have a map to follow. This confirms the word that Lance gave me 3 years ago about God fashioning me into a Matic. A tool.  A new model that others will model after. I will be formed to dig into hard ground, inside and outside the church. Breaking hard ground, breaking hardened people with the love of God and shoveling them up into softer, more conducive environments. It also confirms Gene's word last year about pioneering alone.

Hard ground, dry deserts, pioneering....sigh. I seem to have come to the end of my rope/pipe at the moment. Waiting for the next extension. ARGH.

Next, at lifegroup, I was blessed. I'm always blessed at this lifegroup, even though it takes me so long to get there and back. A girl and I ministered to each other. I've been able to bless a few people with some prophetic visions over the past few weeks. Praise God. But today, I was ministered to. The girl is an intercessor and she called out a few things. She said I was feeling like I was stuck in a swamp and I couldn't get out. But God was going to hand me a rope and I was to cling on to it. She also saw me dancing around a waterfall in a pink dress. She didn't know what pink represented but she said I was very beautiful. So beautiful, especially from the inside. I was dancing in a relaxed, free, joyful manner. And she said God sees me like that, beautiful. And I was not to believe the lies of the enemy about my appearance or even inner beauty. She prayed for the breaking of bondages of lies that came from the world and the enemy. And God has empowered me to write songs and to compose. God has given me the ability, even to write in Chinese and I was to declare it over myself. God has given me the ability to do all He had called me to do. She saw of picture of me eating good food, and then eating some supplements. She said God would add to me all I needed for this calling, He would supplement whatever I lacked. His grace would be sufficient. She said God knows my songs and compositions. And God thinks they are unique and special. God said my works were special because they didn't come from just ability and talent, from the beauty in my heart, of my inner self. 

Needless to say, I was quite grateful and overwhelmed by the words. It has been a rather depressing few days. I HATE feeling stuck and helpless. AND, I've been feeling pretty down about my weight...everyone is so skinny here. Doesn't help when people say you're not attractive [physically and mentally] enough for the industry too. Sigh. 

God, I pray that you would give me a bigger portion of faith to call things that are not into being, and  declare fearlessly things that already are true...Your perspective is always true.

* Forgot part of the word Rachelle gave me. She also said that my path up the mountain would not be like the normal one. People climb up from the outside, but I'll be tunneling in from the inside, in routes that are not the norm. Hmmm..we shall wait and see.