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Tasting life and facing fears

I must say, I detest the walking down the road from my house to the MRT. Because I'm usually rushing for time and I get hot and sweaty and my make up gets all messed up. 15 minutes up and down a hill is too much when you're trying to get to just an MRT station. 

BUT, when I'm walking up the road back home, it's night time [usually]. It's cooler. And I don't mind the peace and quiet and the time to reflect on my day.

I started off the day with stomach aches and diarrhea. Must have eaten something funky yesterday night with my lifegroup. Wonder what was bad. I haven't had any issues with food here so far. So I was sleeping in all day and felt very bad for doing so, because I HAVE WORK TO DO. But you can't really help feeling dehydrated and fatigued when you have food poisoning...even very mildly. I have a strong stomach and I rarely have issues when others do. So something must have been pretty funky/dirty.

One new thing is that I've been going for lots of 'lessons'. Ah Chin and Faye from F.I.R was introduced to me by Sharon, my occasional lyrics partner. I don't know Faye well, but Ah Chin is a real nice guy and he teaches pop song composition for free every Monday to people as a means of fellowship and evangelism. I've been enjoying the little tips he's been handing out as well as getting to know more people in the music world. And tonight, I braved the weak stomach and went to dinner and a lesson on recording/mixing/mastering with the 7 Shekels band. They are a christian band, and I'm starting to work with their guitarist, Ray. I also buy facial products from Ray's wife, Eva. Haha...quite a complete set up. I learnt quite a lot today and perhaps I'll put up some of the things I learnt someday. 

I am so invigorated by learning. I don't know why, but I got the same feeling when I was learning guitar from my boss last year. A few lessons only. But I enjoyed learning and improving myself so much. I really dread the feeling of static-ness and non-progress. Any progress in any good way, however small, gets me tasting life to the full! 

I remember way back in 2005, I was scared of learning new stuff then. I went to my first 'Intro to Pro-tools' class and never went back. I was scared to death of technology and was intimidated by all the things I needed to buy and learn. I didn't know what an external hard drive was....hehe. I panicked when I was told to buy one for the class....and I dis-enrolled. And I didn't know what on earth the lecturer was talking about half the time in that lesson. How funny my 19 year old self was. Perhaps uni was already chock-full of learning new stuff and that class was just overload. I went to 'Intro to Finale' instead,  and threw myself in the program heart and soul and learnt about about notation software quite thoroughly. It has come in useful since then....but I wish I didn't run away from the Pro-Tools class. I was just a scaredy-cat. 

Learning to not be afraid of new things, or rather, not shy away from facing the fear and keep going until the fear slowly ebbs away and a sense of exhilaration starts to sink in. New things, after all, are fresh and exciting, once you get past the numbing fear of the unknown.

A lot of things to handle this month. Session recording project coming up very soon and I'm still cracking my head very hard. God, please help! And other arrangements due...not yet done. And planning trips....and doing my tax....etc

Comments

Anonymous said…
Charis, take care. Food poisoning is a warning that your body started rejecting certain stuff which might be quite usual to the local. and I am so glad to know you have been learning many things. Keep the fire burning, sister :)
SU said…
I know how that feels - new things scare me too. Love the new pics you posted up on fb! Get well soon =)

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