Flooding and Admiration Anxiety

It's chaos in Brisbane right now. Funny how my world still somewhat revolves around Brisbane because of how many adult-life-long friends I have there. Well, they are all practically there. The friends that I've made in the 6 years I spent in Brisbane. Uni friends, church family, work colleagues... Half of my Facebook ppl come from Brisbane or previously lived in Brisbane. Therefore, everyone is buzzing about the flood and the panic that is sweeping over Queensland.

Praying for the rains to stop and the floods to recede.

And about admiration anxiety...I was chatting with a pal. And he coined this term for me. Admiration Anxiety = Being dismissive and suspicious of admiration and compliments from anyone. Basically holding a cynical view point about people who admire me because I'm suspicious of anything that smacks of hero worship.

It made me think. Hmm. Maybe. I'm so anxious to be real and authentic and I KNOW the crazy amount of flaws and weaknesses and ugliness I have. It's like, if people only see the good and not the flaws I'm suspicious of any good-will from them. Heh. Perhaps I shouldn't be so dismissive of compliments or even genuine admiration. We can still honour each other, flaws and all. Sigh. Where's the balance in such things?

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