Sistas in purple.
Chinese New Year finery.
Family with Grandma
It's good to be back where it's not freezing and damp x100000000000. I don't mind the cold but I detest the rain.
Kedah state is at its hottest at the moment. Another type of unbearable. But in my house, it's fairly cool. And there's always air-conditioning if it hits 35 degrees and above.
I've been having a lot 'tussle' conversation with Dad and Mom. It's such a mind-bloggling thing to try to be an artist. To start a brand. To start any form of business or entreprenuer-like activity. I'm freaking out and frequently asking myself why I'm bringing so much stress to myself and my family. But I remind myself that God is for me, and He set me on this path. He will guide me, though often I am not still enough to hear His voice.
I just have this nagging feeling that if I settle for less, then somehow I'm missing how. I desperately want to let all the potential that God has put in me to explode forth. Or to grow into something that can support myself and bless many others. If I just settle for less than what the dream and vision in my heart cries for, then it's compromise. I desperately want the easier life! I value my comfort! But the dream burns stronger than all these complaints of my mind, emotions and body.
God....feel like a blind man groping my way around here. Your wisdom is sorely needed!
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