My thoughts are everywhere. So this post is going to fly all over the place. Apologies in advance.
I have a deadline to meet. It's a frightening one. Not impossible, but tough because of how long it normally takes me to focus on arranging. Usually a couple of days of trying to arrange before the arranging actually happens. I want to say I hate arranging, but I can't. Love-hate is more accurate. I love making music. I hate that daily life and making music doesn't make very well. If I have to cook healthy meals and exercise and go to church and keep up friendships, it's very hard to be 'in the zone' for making decent music.
That's why I'm listening to this song by the twins. As annoying as I find their (莫名奇妙)popularity, they have been a blessing in some little way to many people. So God bless them.
Weary.
I have this supposedly awesome life. A few people have messaged me privately on FB and congratulated me on my awesome life. "You're moving up", "You're moving forward", "You're doing well", "Life in Taiwan looks great for you" etc. When I actually stop to think and breathe, life isn't that bad. Heh. I haven't been idle, and God has blessed me.
I have a lot of patience for certain things, but a very limited supply for other things.
The things you really really want. Do they always evade you? Lots of other goodies fall on your lap. But the things you really want...Maybe they drop on on the laps of others (and the Bethel crowd will tell me I need to celebrate it because it is a test from the Lord to see if I will celebrate the success of others. I do my best). Maybe they just seem further and further out of reach because of the time just keeps passing by. Maybe they have become in reach, but you're not sure if you want them this way. The price you have to pay is too hight?
Count count count my blessings! Remember everything He has enabled me to do, trained me to do, and given freely to me.
Daddy God, I'm sorry. Please hug me.
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