The year has sped by quite fast. By Thursday, Bubby Chou (that's what we call him for the moment) will be 30 weeks. So, we're 7 months along...
I hesitate to blog whenever I have the urge to because I don't think I organize my thoughts well, but finally, I'm in front of the computer again. It is 1am and I should be asleep. Most people I've met say that sleeping and waking up early during the pregnancy will help the bub get used to regular sleep times, instead of sleeping late and waking up all through the night.
T and I went to Hokkaido for a week and it was a nice baby-moon. Goodness knows when we will be able to have a proper holiday by ourselves again. T is the best holiday partner one can have. Good tempered, likes to eat (like me), game to try new things, willing to walk around a lot but he's not an energiser bunny on overdrive like one friend I know (yup KX I'm thinking about you. Whenever I"m sight seeing with KX I always feel like I'm lagging behind. She has boundless energy and likes to be on the go 24 7). Perhaps I will blog about Hokkaido in the future. Japan is always nice for a holiday.
Bubby has grown a lot these few weeks. At 5 and even 6 months I was barely showing though I couldn't fit in most of my clothes anymore (at least, not in a flattering way). Most of my weight gain has thickened and widened my body rather than the bump. Boo!
However, Bubby ate very well in Japan via moi, so I guess it was growth spurt time. Between 26 weeks and 30 weeks I feel like the bump has literally doubled in size. In Japan, T said he could see the bump growing everyday!
Due to work projects and the Japan trip, my workout schedule had been interrupted for about 2.5 weeks or more. I walked around a lot (10,000 steps -20,000 steps), but I wasn't doing T25, Billy Blanks or weight training. Once I got back to Taipei and restarted it, I could feel that Bubby was soooo much heavier now. It was much harder to move. But I've persevered... and the exercise schedule is back on track. Weight gain is at 8.5 - 9 kilos (around 18 pounds now). Bubby should be currently at 1kg. still needs to put on at least 1.5kg -2kg, so an extra 2-3 kg is what I'm aiming to gain for the next 2 months.
Hoping that the discomfort and water retention can be kept to the minimum these 2 months. Most people say that it gets bad for the last month. I'm resigned to the fact that swelling is inevitable but I find that exercise and less sodium/carbs really does help prevent crazy water retention. I haven't had to deal with bad cankles or stretch marks yet. So... cautiously optimistic.
We haven't moved yet and we've had a terrible time looking for an apartment. The toughest so far in my Taipei experience. If we haven't found something suitable by the end of the month, I think we need to give up the idea of moving for the next year. Sigh. Sometimes feels like we're struggling on our own in this area and God hasn't been much of a help. Still wondering if perhaps it is His will for us not to move? It's going to be hard to move once I hit 8 months and I'm wondering if I can deal with it on top of all the mandatory shopping for Bubby.
Still toying around with names. Boy names are so hard to choose...
Trying not to think of life after Bubby arrives. It's quite overwhelming to think of having to be responsible for the next 18 years for this kid. I wish I could be like most of my friends who are ecstatic at the thought of parenthood. I really didn't choose this at all....
Every time I hit a low because of the pregnancy (like looking puffy and fat, not being to find a suitable house, financial pressures, etc) it's hard to feel full of faith and thanksgiving because I didn't choose this...And I feel forced to be responsible for this. It's hard to feel like a powerful person that is responsible for his/her choices in this situation.
Amidst all the reluctance, it's not like we don't love Bubby. We talk to him pretty often (T is quite funny when he does it). I don't doubt our capacity to be good parents. The timing of this event has just been quite awful for us though...
More later.
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