Charismatic

I was at the Kris Vallotton ' Spirit Wars' Conference tonight. He talked about many things, basically outlining the first few chapters of his book, "Spirit Wars". But what struck me today was his explanation of thoughts, lofty things and speculations. Particularly lofty things. A lofty thing is a a lie, usually a lie that makes us believe our circumstances are bigger than God, or that a lie that makes us feel powerless, helpless and oppressed. I realized that I've been repeating so many lies to myself internally. No wonder I've been depressed most of the time. Life is not worth living because of the pain of just living. Being joyful is almost impossible 80%of the time because of burden of life My body is not beautiful until it hits a certain percentage of body fat with no flab, and my face is not beautiful unless it has a certain bone structure God is not going to provide my desires, only my basic needs (if that) Something bad might happen to me an...

Lord After watching the first Seraphim episode that I was given a chance to work on, I cringed a lot and thank you that it is by Your grace that I am given opportunities to work on such great projects at all. I am really not the best singer, especially when I am busy band-leading and playing piano and keyboard. I was out of tune a lot in the last bits. The quality of my own voice grates on my own ears. But Lord, You are the one who has led me forward, given me favour I didn't earn, and also pushed me out of my comfort zone to learn even more. I think I sing in tune live a little more constantly now after 1 year, Lord. And I can handle bigger arrangements. I am not the best piano player by far, but still, You have made a pathway in the wilderness for me. Thank You. I still cringe at myself. But I will keep trusting that You will lead me on, and I will keep improving. Thank You for being the one who always encouraged me to sing, to play and to write. Thank you for tailori...

An excerpt Tips for Loving Tough Given that background, let me get very specific with those of you who are single but wish not to be. (No insult is intended to those who are single by design and wish to remain unmarried. That is a legitimate choice which should be respected by friends and family alike.) I have listed 16 suggestions that will help you conform to the principles of loving toughness in matters of the heart. 1. Don't let the relationship move too fast in its infancy. The phrase "too hot not to cool down" has validity. Take it one step at a time. 2. Don't discuss your personal inadequacies and flaws in great detail when the relationship is new. No matter how warm and accepting your friend may be, any great revelation of low self-esteem or embarrassing weaknesses can be fatal when interpersonal "valleys" occur. And they will occur. 3. Remember that respect precedes love. Build it stone upon stone. 4. Don't call too often o...

What is it about guys who are 'cute' but vain and metrosexual, and cats? They love cats. I can't figure it out? Maybe dogs are too noisy, messy, and smelly. Cats are clean and vain like them? Hmmm.... I've seen quite a few of these blokes already (though 'blokes' is the wrong word. They aren't bloke-ish at all)

Eva, one of the first people I met in Taiwan [on holiday 2009] The meal was her shout. HUGZZ Pesto chicken risotto. It's the yums! Fettucine with prawns and cream sauce Mojito - <3 my cocktails Layered cake Feeling so much better today. Thank God for friends who remind you of God's grace in beautiful ways.  One of the reasons I love my church is because it's full of people who understand and dispense God's grace. I've never heard condemnation and accusations. I've never heard my church friends around criticize other christians [though I've heard other ppl from other churches do it]. I hear honest feedback if one needs to change and grow. But they exude grace, love and authenticity.  I was whining to Eva today about how success seems to comes so easily for some people, and they don't seem to need to try very hard at all (e.g. mainly thinking about a pair of twins). Recently, one of them got married, an...

It's that time of the year!!!!! What time? The week before my birthday. Hah. Birthdays make me all reflective and feel 'blog-ish'. This time though, I am almost numb to the fact that I'm turning 27. I really don't want to grow older. It scares me like it never has before. Although I am slightly more immune shock of aging physically [the dark eye circles, the fat deposits that don't want to leave, the red spots and pigmentation that are slowly appearing all over my skin, the sore shoulders and back], I still can't mentally grasp that I'm more than quarter of a century old and I am still, according to my own standards, not anywhere near where I should be. But I am still on this journey. And it looks like there's no use in turning back. What will I have left if I turn back? He promises that there is destination. I take that in faith. And hope that the destination isn't too disappointing. It's a short and not particularly cheerful post. ...